oh my blueberry

do you ever have those moments in life where you just want to hit rewind.

yesterday was one of those.

i am highly allergic to mold (i guess that makes me a nerd.?)

tuesday night i was eating fresh fruit straight from the container,

you know those pretty party platters.

i was also talking to mr b...

talking and eating and talking and eating this delicious fruit and then

i ate the worst blueberry ever! it was molded! uck, uck, uck!!!

i was so much into the conversation that i ate a molded blueberry.

that blueberry stayed in my mouth for .02 seconds. i rinsed, i brushed, i took a benadryl.

wednesday came.

headache, sore throat, ear ache, itchy eyes. seriously! it was just one little blueberry.

i came to work late, but seriously who wants to tell their boss i had an allergic reaction to a moldy blueberry.

today is new day. i am much better than yesterday.

cheers to a new day and the invention of medicine!

today will be our first adoption class. i am over the moon ready for tonight.

a whole new experience with people i don't know - kind of freaks out my introverted self.

but i know that god has a plan for us and our baby to be.

there is a peace that comes from knowing that you are in gods plan.

 a man’s heart plans his way, but the lord directs his steps.

proverbs 16:9

rainy on sunday

i love rainy fall days. i cannot get enough of them.

i have just moved into my new house and i am loving my back deck.

apparently there is a lot of love today.

i can open the door and listen to the rain fall onto my patio.

 

some weekends are just great. this is one of those.

i have been able to connect with so many friends this weekend.

 

mr. b and i started it off with a hike in shackertown.

we were talking and walking and not paying attention to where we were headed.

at 7:45 we realized that the sun would go down soon and we really didn't know where we were

or how far it as to the car. needless to say, we ran three miles back to the car and

made it out before sunset. we were looking for an adventure...and we found one.

it is so great to have mr b back. we really love just sending time together.

 

 

 

saturday i went to the farmers market first thing in the morning.

i came home and baked and baked and baked.

sometimes you just get in the mood to make food.

i do believe i am done with cooking for the entire week.
 

 

today we had beautiful service at st. peter's.

being at st. peter's feels like coming home.

there is something about the prayer book that connects us to the church historical.

to worship with those who have gone before us in the faith.  

the prayers are so well thought out. the creeds connect us with those who have dedicated their lives to study and understand the word of god.

 

every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created. james 1:17

 

just as i am, though tossed about with many a conflict, many a doubt; fightings and fears within, without, o lamb of god, i come. i come.

miss you like crazy

it's been a month and a half now that husband has been traveling.

i was able to get away from my desk for two weeks to hang out with him,

 but that was several weeks ago.

i am missing mr. b like crazy.

it's so bad that when i saw one of his friends tonight and he asked me how i was doing... i cried.

i actually cried. in a restaurant. in my little town. to an ats student.

i miss my husband!

 

so tonight i am going to brag on my man.

 

he is amazing!

he finished this past year at ats with an ma in biblical studies.

he is the only person who received triple honors in his graduating class.

he also received two awards one for hebrew and the other for biblical studies.

he is an amazing teacher of the bible. he is passionate about scripture.

he loves the lord and he loves others.

on top of it all that.

he is also a handy man. he can fix a car, work on the house.

he has designed and built cabins. he is an excellent investor.

and he's super cute {or at least i think so}.

 

i love you mr. b and i am so thankful for the past nine years we have had together.

i am also thankful that you are such a wonderful man and husband.

 

 

 

put a layer on it

today started at 54 degrees and headed up to 84 degrees.

how does one dress for such a day?

put a layer on it.

check out my layer transitions for the day.

and my exploding desk.

 

 

 

Pants, Sweater, Necklace: J.Crew. Scarf: Target. Shirt, B.R.

 

moving on out

this week, besides catching up on my day job, i am packing my house. i start moving on thursday.

so much packed into august.

my husband is still in alaska. so here i am, moving by myself.

thankfully, i have a lot of girlfriends who have volunteered their husbands (thank you husbands).

i also have some awesome friends at church who have volunteered.

it feels so strange to be in this house for the last week without my husband.
in just one day i will be picking up the key to my new space called home. 

baby baby

mr. b and i have been trying for a baby for several years now.

we just celebrated 9 years of marriage.

a few months ago we had a few days of pink line happiness.

only a few days later to be disapointed.

i asked mr. b for a dog, he replied "let's get a baby instead".

we have always talked about adoption, and here it is. it is actually going to happen.

literally the day after we decided to adopt, we found out about a local adoption agency.

the agency is perfect for us. they way the adoption works is everything we could ask for.

the next week we signed with the agency.

we were 7th on the list for the fall class. they only take 6 couples per class.

by the grace of god, we made the fall class. the invitation came the first week in alaska.

so, here we go.

the first week in september mr. b and i will start the adoption class.

through this entire process so far, we have seen god's hand moving and directing.

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh,

thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11 

so it's been a while...

and i'm back.

i've been in alaska, visiting family and friends.

i will soon make some posts of my beautiful alaskan adventure.

this week has been back to work. i work at a university. this was freshman orientation week.

the time away from work gave me time to reset.

i was able to think about my goals for the next year and spend extra time with god.

on my vacation to do list was reading visionary parenting. i read over half. great book.

 a lot of thinking and journaling.

 defiantly a book i will come back to time and again as i begin the journey of parenting.

speaking of parenting...

my first day in alaska i recieved the email i have been eagerly hoping, praying and expecting.

mr. b and i have been accepted into an adoption agency.

we start classes in just a few short weeks.

it all feels surreal.

telling (and crying with)  my closest girl friends made it the most real so far.

i will have to do a separate post for my adoption journey thus far.

current to do:

my goddaughter's first birthday party: this weekend

moving to my new house: next weekend

visiting my sister and nephews: three weeks out